我在美国当老师（1）

我是一名在美国有12年教师经历的数学和中文老师。我老公Tom也是老师，还是入美国名人堂的高中篮球教练。2021 是我人生中又一个低谷年：我和老公还在2020年的十一月份得了新冠。之后老公生病、住院、手术，辞去了教师工作。我一年内出了两次车祸，工作也不顺利，在十月份也辞去了教师工作。还好我有另一份兼职的赌场荷官的工作，现在转成了全职。

刚刚叫了救护车送我先生去医院。总觉得凶多吉少可还是得面对。Tom泪流满面地交待他的所有的帐号密码在iPad的note里。他恐怕也是有预感？Tom就是太弱,又拉又泻好几天了，也不怎么吃东西。他吃抗抑郁的药还要吃消炎的药，还有糖尿病的药，各种药物不能平衡。救护车上的人说他心脏可能有问题。看着曾经高大威武的Tom现在变得瘦弱憔悴,我满心伤感。我跟着救护车到了医院，大厅里只有我一个人，还是上网吧。

在我先生的note里看到了他的日记。

十月四号的，那时我还在从新泽西与高中同学聚会后返家的路上。(下文中Li是我的小名，11是女儿的小名, Lucky是我家的狗）

My wife is a wonderful woman with great intelligence and ability. It was amazing that she was able to reunite with 14 of her classmates in New York. The pictures and videos she sent gave me a greater understanding of the Chinese people andculture. All of these classmates left China and Relocated here or in Canada. What shows through is the warm caring nature of Chinese people. I am so happy she had this opportunity to reconnect with her friends. All I have is one friend, my wife and daughter. Yi has all these additional friends and classmates again. I am so happy for her and very proud of her. She is tougher and smarter than I am. Her ability to learn a new language, become a teacher here and master technology is amazing. I love you Li. My greatest accomplishment has nothing to do with coaching basketball, it was bringing Yi and 11 here to this country. Let that be my legacy. That, and all the young lives I touched in fifty plus years of teaching and coaching.

Thank you God and take care of Li and 11 please！

(我的妻子是个了不起的女人，她很有智慧和能力。令人惊奇的是，她能够去纽约与 14 位同学团聚。她发来的照片和视频让我对中国人民和文化有了更深入的了解。所有这些同学都离开了中国，在美国或加拿大定居。照片中表现出来的是中国人的热情关怀的本性。我很高兴她有机会与她的朋友重新建立联系。我只有一个朋友，我的妻子和女儿。谊又多了这么多朋友和同学。我为她感到高兴，也为她感到骄傲。她比我更坚强，更聪明。她学习一门新语言、成为这里的老师和掌握电脑技术的能力令人惊叹。我爱你丽。我最大的成就与执教篮球无关，而是把谊和11带到了这个国家。这件事以及我在五十多年的教学和指导中触及的所有年轻生命。这才是我的传奇。谢谢上帝，请照顾丽和11！)

十月六号

I’m amess. Hard to pee, constipation, weak, unmotivated, depressed. Trying to hangon, get better and take some pressure off Yi. I don’t want to die, but I want my quality of life to get back to normal. Roughest year of my life. It seems like everything hit at once.

COVID

Wounds

Hospitalstays

Surgeries

Procedures

Retirement

Yi teaching situation

Lucky dead

Rehab

Car accident

我一团糟。难以小便、便秘、虚弱、没有动力、情绪低落。试着挺过去，变好些以减轻谊的压力。我不想死，但我希望我的生活质量恢复正常。我生命中最艰难的一年。似乎一切都一下子发生了。

冠状病毒病

伤口

住院

手术

伤口处理及恢复疗程

退休

谊的教学处境

Lucky死了

康复训练

车祸）